Yay for yesterdays

haha alliteration sorta ...

anyways, been chatting with a friend about all the random stuff we used to do in HS and undergrad and theres so much stuff that I've forgotten. fun times lol. she even had some random AIM logs from way back in 2004 or whenever the hell jay chou came to the USC area from some old xanga stuff or something like that. random convos I don't even remember ever having...

her: are you going to jay chou's concert at the shrine?
me: shrine auditorium?
me: as in the one i live across the street from?
her: uh-huh
me: :/
me: great
her: wanna go stalk him for me
me: screaming mass of fans in december
me: i hope my finals are over before then
her: at least they'll all be little asian girls
me: lol
her: you should go
her: you like jay chou right?
me: mm
me: not really?
me: i only heard like, one of his songs once
me: for 30 seconds
her: haha ok fine never mind
her: fine, maybe not jay chou
her: but you like little asian girls yea?

how times have changed ... jay chou is going to play near USC again this december except this time I actually listen to his stuff and have most of his albums hahaha *gasp!* I don't think, back then, I could have predicted such a dramatic shift in my music collection in such a short time...

I guess you never know whats in store for your near future despite how absurd things may sound. It's only been, what, two or three years since I graduated and so much has changed. I guess the most glaring change in my overall life philosophy/outlook is that I'm not genuinely "happy", per se. But I guess thats part of growing up and also due to keeping everything pent up haha. I used to talk too much and made some, okay a lot, of mistakes because of my big mouth (lol, it was like oral ADHD on overdrive). Now I'm like the total opposite and try to keep everything to myself but I guess I'd better change again and find a balance between the two. I'll try. I'm trying. :)

Like someone recently told me (okay i'm bending your words just a tad), i gain nothing from keeping it all pent up and its robbing me of what my life could be.

But still ... Once bitten, twice shy.


on a side note: went shopping today and picked up a spiffy new 52 vokey :D